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SavannahStar
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Fri Sep 19, 2008 3:15 pm |
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| woebedamned
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Fri Sep 19, 2008 4:58 pm |
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Thinking of you today, VC.
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| Fashionista
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Fri Sep 19, 2008 6:07 pm |
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Prayer for the Animals
by Albert Schweitzer
Hear our humble prayer, O God, for our friends, the animals.
Especially for animals who are suffering; for any that are
hunted or lost or deserted or frightened or hungry;
for all that must be put to death.
We entreat for them all Thy mercy and pity,
and for those who deal with them, we ask a
a heart of compassion and gentle hands and kindly words.
Make us, ourselves, to be true friends to animals,
and so to share the blessings of the merciful.
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| victims cry
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Fri Sep 19, 2008 7:39 pm |
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thank you so much everyone. I keep crying, feel like a huge part of my life and reason for it has been ripped from me. It was very peaceful, they didn't even take him back to the treatment area to put the catheter in but did it in the comfort room, then we talked and cuddled and as he was wrapped up in a snuggly white blanket, in my arms, he went to sleep as the medicine was put into the catheter. He and i were on a love seat together, and i managed not to cry until i came home. Buried him in the front garden and then went to my empty bed..well the bed wasn't empty but his pillow was. (albeit punkin seems to know he is gone, she has now taken it over)
facing the fact i won't need to worry about what time i get up because i won't be checking his blood sugar, or keeping a sharp eye on his breathing so that i can get him meds when he gets an infection. No more sleeping with his head in my hand or head to head. No more laughing at him staring at me until i made sure there was enough spring water in the pet fountain for it to be bubbling not a slow stream, or watching his face as i made the bed and then he came running to be first on the clean sheets and pillows. He loved a fresh bed. It didn't matter what i asked of him, he always trusted me and sometimes told me no more and i could trust him too and know he knew best sometimes.
He was so brave, and such a fighter and loved life so much, it was so hard to end it. Most of all though, he was my best buddy who gave me as much as i gave him.
i have my other babies, but scootch was one of a kind just because of all his trials and tribulations and how he handled them.
miss him. it helps to know that others care too.
thank you
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| Siddalee
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Fri Sep 19, 2008 7:48 pm |
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I hope you felt the prayers and thoughts of good will from your friends at RU today - you were on our minds. Butterscotch is free from pain now and happily running and playing at the Rainbow Bridge. Peace be with you.
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| victims cry
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Fri Sep 19, 2008 9:40 pm |
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it helps so much to know you care. I am going to bed bc i keep wanting to dig him up just to hold him, and thats crazy. oh god.
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| Siddalee
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Fri Sep 19, 2008 9:55 pm |
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| victims cry wrote: | | it helps so much to know you care. I am going to bed bc i keep wanting to dig him up just to hold him, and thats crazy. oh god. |
VC, you can sleep in peace tonight knowing that you did the right thing for your Butterscotch. You will never forget the bond you two had, and the memories will stay with you. Time heals your pain, but your memories of the time you had with Butterscotch will live on. You are a good person.
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| Alexandria
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Fri Sep 19, 2008 10:12 pm |
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Thought of you so many times today.
Your babe is at peace.
I hope you will be at peace with this soon.
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| victims cry
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Sun Sep 21, 2008 1:45 am |
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I am doing a little better today, still teary if i enter the bedroom..where punkin has taken over his pillow, and everytime i get food for the the bedroom cats. *wry smile* the girls finally figured out that butterscotch was being fed in bed a couple of years ago, mostly to ensure he ate the Innova Eve he loved rather than the higher carb food the others got. He liked being hand fed on his pillow which when he felt yucky i did anyway and it turned into a habit because it also ensured his diabetic diet of an all natural no grain dry food and he didnt like wet. Well that was fine until Punkin and Sweetheart figured it out bc i ended up having to put a bowl of dry on the bed (danged if i was hand feeding those gluttons). It also has a good fat content as long with its high protein so they all love it.
Since then there have been bedroom cats and regular cats.
I just want to thank everyone. Don't remember a loss like scootch..remember ones i have loved as much but not those i was connected to in every way. When the tech (she needs a dff title bc she is the best tehy have and 3 vets told me that) asked if i wanted them to do the catheterization etc in the comfort room and i said yes, she responded "i knew you would ". meaning that i didnt want him out of my sight but more importantly that there was nothing that could be done that would disturb me, it was my responsibility to be with him every step.
probably the only ones who can understand completely are those who treated kidney failure or other diseases at home, making your furbaby trust you no matter what you did.
not sure if i mentioned it earlier, prolly did but im just going on auto here..i knew what scootch needed partly bc he told me. This was a cat who was a biter when he arrived and still had no problem using his teeth to disapprove when i gave him the chest rub he loved before the cancer screwed his body. Which warned me of a problem..my first idea..get doxycycline he must be really stuffed up with mucus if he bites at a chest rub..even ate far better after which gave me false info. clearly he was feeling yucky respiratory but it didnt; answer the rest.
Erin said "he trusts you so much, i wont forget when you did his blood test to show me the use of the lancet, he just stood there" - but there was a problem with my new glucometer, i had to test him twice - and i was surpr4ised. bc i thought it was a disaster of shwoing anyting. I have tested even the most feral cats, they all sit there, its like a fleabite..not worth a fuss. Tested them all bc of those on feline diabetes who thought their wild, fussy, or otherwise cats would never accept it so i checked all 9 of mine. No cat will fuss it imo more than once.
god im still trying to be technical..bc i am breaking at his loss. I work hard to not show punkin how it hurts me to see her in his pillow.
anyone know of a kitty in ottawa area who needs nursing care bc im just brooding without any ability help
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| victims cry
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Sun Sep 21, 2008 2:26 am |
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an embarrassing photo..but it says it all. kay took it as i slept with scootch. i woke at the flash and she took another which follows. looks the same but the expression is diff
and yes its me in all my fatness and inglory
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| gwen
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Sun Sep 21, 2008 2:36 am |
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What great pics to have! My thoughts and prayers are with you, VC.
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| victims cry
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Sun Sep 21, 2008 3:17 am |
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you cant see it well but my other arm is under he pillow and my fingers under/against his face and chin. you can see a couple of them in the sec pic
i look awful but ..its how we talked. and now im sobbing again. Truly a trust relationship and head to head or head to hand..we talked, we loved and we were partners. he was my baby
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| victims cry
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Sun Sep 21, 2008 3:19 am |
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i cant explain it....maybe kay can, she gave up a lot of her own comfort for him and I.
i just know he was my soul son.
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| victims cry
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Sun Sep 21, 2008 4:08 am |
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| gwen wrote: | | What great pics to have! My thoughts and prayers are with you, VC. |
tks. but awful pics. i tried to crop the worst of my fat ugly body but couldnt crop my face...yet scootch is gorgeous
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| Kay_The_Kitten
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Sun Sep 21, 2008 4:12 am |
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Speaking as a parent who has a 2 footed child, Scootch was her kid. And speaking as a ex-paramedic who saw alot of kids with chronic conditions and their parents, Michele is acting like a parent with a 4 footed child who has been chronically ill.
Kay
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| victims cry
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Sun Sep 21, 2008 4:15 am |
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you sort of lie.. you gave up the bed for him, when you come up and you brought your own aircondinitioning unit so scootch did not suffer in the heat. You are almost as bad as i am. And you payed for or promised to pay for his bill even tho its a month where you cant afford to.
you treat him like your 2 footed child too. cept u think i was crazy over him 
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| victims cry
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Sun Sep 21, 2008 4:18 am |
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harumph. Sweetheart is ordering me to bed. She comes to "meh" until i follow her and pet her on the bed even tho there is food in the dish. means she hasnt had her attention.
night all
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| LiveNLearn
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Sun Sep 21, 2008 8:27 pm |
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Those are lovely pics of you VC with your "kids".
I can't get over how Scootch lays on that pillow, cuddled over to you, just the same as my "Fatty-Boy" does.
Just identical.
What is so odd, is that after my father died, Fatty-Boy became very attache to me, where before, he was just a normal, if you will, cat.
In that, if he wanted attention, he would ask, otherwise, he was content to be on is own.
As I mentioned, I stayed the entire month in the hospital with my Dad, so I wasn't home during time.
After Dad passed, and I came home, Fatty-Boy really started sleeping with me, every night after that.
Most nights, I have to sleep on the sofa, and he comes over, looks at me, and I tell him to come on to bed.
He gets right up and lays against me, all stretched out to past my knees. He's huge.
Many nights, I have such pain, that I would be better off without him next to me, but it seems like those nights, he is more aware and comes to bed earlier.
The dreams that I have had since Dad passing have always been of him in the form of a panther, black cat. Both of my sisters have had dreams of Dad in a cat form also ~ ~
Who knows what it means....
That's what Fatty-Boy is, with a bit of white, mostly black though, tuxedo with a Sylvester lopsided mustouche.
I look back, and can remember many times that my brothers and sisters would call Dad, and they complained that all he talked about were his cats, or his outside stray cats that he took care of.
It would piss them off ~
I was never troubled, or bothered by it, as I shared the same love for cats that he did.
It wasn't that he didn't love us, but, these cats became his whole life as he grew older, we grew older and had families, etc.
It's hard to explain to them, but, I know that you understand what I mean.
When they should have been just happy to hear his voice, they complained that all he talked about were his cats.
Well, maybe if they had called more, or visited more, their conversations could have gone elsewhere? I don't know, because I would listen to him, instead of cutting him off.
I'm sorry = I went way off track VC.
I guess your loss this week just has me thinking of Dad this week, more than I normally do.
It is so hard to loose one of our pet-children.
Your comparision of a sick child was so on point. It's not that you loved him because of his illness, it was in spite of it.
And, you gave him the attention that a parent would.
That hits home here also...
I planted a flower for your big guy the other day.
A beautiful yellow, double daffodil.
It's called "Ice King" ~ But don't let the name fool you.
It's a beautiful, huge blossom, white outer petals, with ruffly butter yellow inside ones.
I can hardly wait for them to bloom next spring.
Take Care ~
~LNL~
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| victims cry
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Sun Sep 21, 2008 9:25 pm |
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take a pic for me LnL. its nice to know someone planted a flower for him. would love to see it.
I am glad your fattyboy is helping you now your dad passed with extra love and attention maybe your dad said he has to the job he can't now of watching over you. im a little embarrassed at the pics bc im hardly looking at my best to say the least. the physical pain be easier if he wasn't with you on the couch but i bet there would be a void that makes it harder to bear.
nothing like unconditional love to help ease pain. my dad once said what your sisters did about your dad to me. that i would care more about my cats death than his and i only talk about the cats.
yet they feed strays and have their babies too..i learned my love for them from my parents.
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| Saucey
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Tue Sep 23, 2008 7:43 pm |
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VC, I have been thinking about you. Looking at your picture Scootch is laying there with you exactly how you had described it! At one time I had a black cat that was identical to the one you have there in the picture.
I am praying for you that somehow you will find some peace in knowing that you did everything you could for Butterscotch, and by looking at that picture, he knew it too!!
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| victims cry
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Thu Sep 25, 2008 9:29 pm |
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| Saucey wrote: | VC, I have been thinking about you. Looking at your picture Scootch is laying there with you exactly how you had described it! At one time I had a black cat that was identical to the one you have there in the picture.
I am praying for you that somehow you will find some peace in knowing that you did everything you could for Butterscotch, and by looking at that picture, he knew it too!! |
thanks saucey. I guess i should be embarrassed posting such a very unflattering picture, but i dont care what i looked like, it was buttterscotch and the love we had between us. Thanks for letting me know the pic shows it a bit
wry smile..not sure if black punkin heard me say i will miss having him as the point/worry/care of my days because since he left us, she has developed sneezes..i think and hope she just has a cold. NOT a chronic respiratory disease.
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